Fear Inside Of Us About Intimacy From Osho's Views

Master Osho has his own view about God, that made him a unkind to some country, some people just can't have open minded. He says we're born to set as a sin, no one ever tell you were born  with love full filled, so we confess all the time, which mean deep inside of you, you knew you're not good enough. People lush for love but when somebody try to rain you with love, i flinch from a very deep cause that i don't think i deserve to have it, cause I'm a sin image strong stay with me from church? society? male higher than female value basic in real life? That's the deeply fear about intimacy of me, I'll think how long it's gonna last? soon or later he wont love me as me, so I'd better to arm myself at the first moment. But love means intimacy, two person's getting closer to two body soul united as one, somehow i got scared people like me -sin soul inside, so i better cover it up, better not go too far too rejected. In that condition inside of me, i cant give love, and that's why ? You don't allow you can be capable to accept love. He said that you're lucky to find out this seed inside, most of people couldn't recognise burden they've been confine, because it's too painful to face that, better forget them and just move on, but ignore them inside doesn't mean you could get over it, it still affect you in life in relationship , in intimacy. Tell you this way He said: If you ignore cancer ? then you cant operate to move cancers away, if you keep on ignore them inside if you, keep blind to it, you're taking a unnecessary path and take a risky path which gonna harm you in days,  it'll grow, and you are the one should take responsible. He said have you ever thought about love just like death?? ---That's real, accept love just like accept death, it make you looks like a beggar , it looks like you're not good as much as a giver. We all follow the rules , and each generations pass the burden to next , don't reasonlise each single excuse just jump in to the gist, go experience yourself and others,  if your exist make you feel joy then you'll be thirst to mystery of everything...human being...animals...stars...every thing's surround you. Death it's a fictional image---well....have anyone witness his/her death?? We always witness other's people's death, and we never thought that we're on the way of death,  that' s how live does. Other people not really died just change another place to stay body only a shall, just like a dark room can light up from candles--soul. Live and death  only the journey of touching soul, whenever you touch soul? the fear about death will be gone meanwhile there's new level of sky to adventure. Whenever you've known death never exist ? all fear are gone, any shape of fear will all gone. Nothing to be afraid, exist is your mother, She wont drawn you, She wont destroy you. Better you know her better can sense joy, then you're rich to give love and rich enough to accept love, because reject issue wont exist. You are a brave woman to ask this problem......... You're live but not really alive, you think you're in love but true is you're not in love.... you just think about live ,life, love, exist,  go have it with your whole heart, break ? let it broken, unbreakable like a stone?   well...you're not alive, sad? feel the most sad you could, That's from a speech of Master Osho.